Conferences

A week of constant rain coupled with fasting and no love life is making this Indian very blue. Yesterday I started tearing up in my car on the way home from work, but than like providence my favorite song of all time came on the radio "Steal my Sunshine" by Lit. It was a one-hit wonder.
Work is slow this week, which is not good, cause it gives my brain time to wander and spin round and round with my worries about my future, dropping me further into a blue zone.
I was watching the MTV show "Made" last night, the girl was trying to make the varsity cheerleading squad, I use to be a cheerleader - loved the sport, hated the girls (they defined the word catty) but as I sat there I became envious of that girl. Oh to be back in high school, how I would change some of the decisions I made...this is what happens when you are blue, you get mopey about the past. Gotta take off the rose-colored glasses.
Probably it all boils down to the fact that I spoke to the boy I liked recently and he didn't seem all that interested in talking with me. I don't get it, how can someone go from liking you to being blase about you? What did I do wrong? Anything I can do to fix the situation? Hate being so out of control, want to shake him and say "why don't you like me anymore?!" Sigh. I'll try to be peppier in tomorrow's post.