Thursday, October 29, 2009

Looking for a Job

Thank you to everyone for their kind words and thoughts about the passing of my grandfather. He once told me that time heals all wounds but in this case, I'm not sure it will ever really heal as much as fade to a scar.

I wanted to post a quick note, man I'm trying to find a job out here in Arizona and it sucks!! Today I went to a job fair, there were 20 employers and nearly 20,000 job seekers!! Egads!!! To top that off, nothing to make one feel worse about oneself when job searching than to google your old flame (the guy from South Africa, remember) and find he is a Vice President of this big firm and has a featured page on the company's website (you know how they do for senior management and stuff). Geez, what a loser I am!


Blogger Molly Malone said...

First of all, I want to apologize for not commenting sooner on the passing of your grandfather. I read your post, made a mental note and then completely let it slip. I know how much he meant to you, and I'm truly sorry for your loss. I'm glad you were able to spend some time with him before he died, though. And I agree, your wound will never heal. I don't think the deaths of loved ones are wounds that are meant to heal. We carry the scars in our heart as reminders of the places they lived when they were with us. If those scars would disappear, then it seems it would dishonor the memory. My hope for you is that the immediate pain of your scar fades in the length of time you need it to fade.

Secondly, I'm so sorry job hunting is a slow slog. The whole nation is hurting, but some markets are hurting more than others. Keep plowing. It'll take a long time, but I have faith that something will turn up for you.

Also, what the hell are you doing Googling old flames? I ask this not because you're freshly married (ahem!) but because there is no better way to make yourself feel badly about yourself than to look up people from your past, when you're going through a rough transition in your life. What the crap? Take care of yourself, girlfriend. Let the past stay in the past! Do your peeping later, when you've got a better hold on things. And stop calling my friend (you) a loser! I don't hang out with losers and I don't let people call my friends denigrating names!

hugs and kisses (and newspaper knocks upside the head),
Molly :)

12:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Molly has spoken like a true friend. Take her advice, going back and finding people or things which give pain is very un-wise. You are newly married concentrate on your new life. I am sure you wouldn't have married your husband if you did not like him. Find all the good which made you decide to marry him and build on it. Learn from the past and Move on. Past should only be looked into for lessons and very pleasant memories, bad things should be put in the trash.

Your note about your grandfather was very touching. Please think of the rest of your family how they must be dealing with the pain, especially your mother and the aunt who took care of him. Call them more often I am sure they will apprecaite it. It is better to build happy memories when they are alive distance should not be an issue use Mr. Bell's invention.
Good Luck in job-hunt.


2:18 PM  
Blogger mommanator said...

repeat after me "I am not a loser1" now repeat it as many times as necessary! How on earth can you call yourself a looser! The things you have done & lived in the past few years!
You will get a job, maybe not the president or something like that, but it WILL come! Be patient- it's a virtue!
I wont even comment on the other guy! Mollie said enough for both of us.
More later

5:40 PM  
Blogger secret agent woman said...

I'm just catching up. I'm sorry about your grandfather. I know he'd been sick, and I understand what a loss it is. You know, the grandfatehr I was closest to died 21 years ago and I still miss him.

8:18 PM  
Blogger mommanator said...

Here I am again. I had to shut down the computer on my soapbox the other day! hope you're up for it. If not don't read today.
Just think about this- you ahve been thru allot the past couple of months- moving, passing of your beloved grandfather, new home, new marriage, loss of job, graduation, and the list goes on! stop and think of that for a bit and repeat after me "I am not a looser"!
you are in my prayers and thoughts constantly and you are a blog friend, just think what the folk who realy know you are doing! you are SPECIAL and never forget that! God dont make junk!
get involved in sending me some wedding pics! Love and hugs your way THE MOMMANATOR

1:20 PM  
Blogger my mind wanders said...

I'm so sorry about Nana. He was wonderful, and he gave and received so much love in his life. And that is a beautiful and special thing. I know you will miss him, but he had a full and loving life. I'm so sorry, friend.

The other "stuff." Well, listen, Molly is 100% right. About all of it. Give yourself a break, will you??!?!?!?! Hopefully I will get to call you soon and we can catch up properly. Love ya.

12:34 PM  
Blogger Virginia Gal said...

Molly - all I can say is "thank you." You make me smile.

Austen - I used Mr. Bell's invention a lot today and you were right, it does help to connect to my family - thank you.

Secret Agent - Thank you for the kind words, gosh 21 years, I'm working it day by day : )

Mommantor - I am so blessed to have you in my life, thank you for the so kind words and prayers, I am touched that someone out there, who has never met me is praying for me, it warms my heart. I will work to send the pic's straightaway.

H - oh you have made me cry, thank you for the kind words on Nana, I miss him so much!

11:24 PM  

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