Blues Continue

I wish I could say this weekend was great, but it wasn't. Actually it was one of the worse weekends I've had in a long time. My depression continues, I'm having difficulty sleeping and eating. My attention span has gone down to zero, I cry at the drop of a hat and those things that use to give me comfort no longer do. I'm going to see my doctor tomorrow, this cannot continue. I'm sorry this blog has become such a downer, but I suppose blogs do reflect our emotions, feelings, well-being and this is the stage I'm at right now. At the same time I feel guilty for even having these self-pitying moods when there are so many people out there who don't have the luxuries of indulging in any feelings beyond just making it through another day, trying to find something to eat and to stay alive. It was simply a chance of birth that allowed me to live better than 95% of the world's population, I could have ended up a daughter of a poor Nepalese farmer, sold into sex trade (another sign of depression, always go to worse case secenario). Sigh.

But this weekend wasn't without at least one funny incident - on Sunday I was manning the Democrat's table at the local farmer's market. This middle class WASP, thin, jogging suit wearing woman came up to me early on in my shift and asked "What is Tim Kaine's stance on abortion?" Internally I wanted to hit her "duh lady" I felt like saying "he's a Democrat, what do you think, you freaking moron?" But instead I said "He is pro-choice." Well, this was just the opening she wanted to go off on how he is not a Christian, he is going to go to hell for allowing that, how can he do that, blah blah, I tuned her out. Actually I was looking for rocks to put down on the pamphlets since it was so windy, hence I just ignored her. I think this really pissed her off, cause she ended with "you're going to hell also for supporting him." "uh-huh" I said back, not even looking at her. I was really engrossed in finding those rocks and I wasn't going to give her the satisfaction of taking the bait. I'm sure she was dying to get into an argument, I could have cared less. She left in a huff. Ahh joy......nothing puts a smile on my face faster than annoying sanctimonous, holier-than-thou, born again religous fanatics. Really as she left I should have shouted out, "if heaven is going to be filled with people like you, than I'd much rather be somewhere else!" I need a bumper sticker to that effect......