Life Sucks Mode
I'm back from India - complete with a cold. Joy.
Trip was interesting...I shall try to write about it soon, nothing too long but at least the salient (is that the word?) points. Needless to say, many of my favorite childhood memories have now been wiped away as I learned that some family members are not as nice as I thought.
Thanks to everyone for their thoughts on getting over my crush. Really it should be quite easy since he has completely forgotten me. So goes my life, no?
On top of that, get back to America to find I have not gotten a call-back to a job I REALLY, REALLY wanted and the clock ticks for this job ending very soon. I have to take my GMAT's next week, in which I will do poorly, so I won't be able to get into my dream busines school. All my so-called friends from far-flung locations have forgotten me. The guy I use to adore and wanted to marry is into someone else, what is better about her than me?
Yeah, yeah, boo hoo whine whine, I know, I should count my blessings, it could be worse, I could be a child sex slave in Thailand, but I'm just really in my life sucks mode. I must ask, is there any point in living, if know your life is going to just go downhill? If at 29, your community and culture considers you an old maid - who will just have to sit around and watch all the young pretty chippy girls get the guys and lead happy ever after lives, while you sit around at home with 50 cats, why keep on going? Should one keep plugging on if one has all the capabilities to do the job but can't seem to get an interview cause one doesn't know the "right people?"
Probably it is my faith and fear of God's wrath that keeps me from offing myself, but even that is waning. What kind of God is this, that I worship, that continues to punch me - and don't give me that B.S. about God testing me - cause I'm so over it, let someone else take a go at this exam.
Right, sorry, I'm just ranting - my life is not in a very happy place right now, maybe I'll just go have some breakfast, low blood sugar level leads to higher depression.
posted by Virginia Gal @ 9:26 AM
11 Comments:
Sweety. Baby. Honey. I wanna give you a hug right now. It won't always be like this and you won't always feel this way. I promise. ((Hugs))
You have post travel blues. It will pass. You're in transition now, and it's difficult. We all like our lives to have a pattern, and it's hard when it changes.
We all love you, and we'll stick by you. Hugs to you, and a mug o' tea!
VG,
Meric and I have decided that you need to spend some time with us, PRONTO.
Pack your bags and come to Joisey ... you'll forget your problems in no time -- a couple of silly nights in Philly, some time in Merci's neck of the woods, and last, but not least, a retreat to Utopia where I will try and hook you up with a rich Joisey boy (with out Mob ties).
Hang in there, your Blog Father loves ya!!!
"the young pretty chippy girls get the guys and lead happy ever after lives,"
HA! really they hate their lives.at least u get to see the world.
and please don't stop complaining, im serious, let it out.its not healthy to keep all this inside.
youll find him.i promise not to get married until you are.
really.
yay india!u have to tell me how it was!!
names.
Divine - thanks for the hugs, I could so use them right now.
Merci - you're right, much of these feelings must be from all this traveling and jet lag. As one of my friend's said, the feelings I'm having are normal for people going through these transistions.
Pax - thank you my blog father - that sounds like a lovely plan. It would be grand fun to hang out with Merci and you in Jersey, maybe I would even get to meet the famous Ms. Magnolia Thunderpussy!
Naema - you're so sweet - In'shAllah I will find him. No no, you mustn't wait till I get married, you're young, you can find a great catch now. I wish I hadn't waited either, stupid, stupid, stupid.
Maidink - Thanks for the wake-up call and for making me laugh, I can use that always! I'd love to come up to Philly, meet the Dinker's and feel better about myself that my life is not so bad. I like your idea on God's testing and the elderly, too funny!
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Hang in there! Take it from someone who's been married 35 years. LIVE for yourself before you must live for a spouse because you find yourself lost a lot after that.
Brenda - thanks, I do wonder if God is waiting for me to mature to these levels before sending me a spouse, or if He has destined I live alone forever, aye!
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