Saturday, February 26, 2011

Pigeon Blog

Still working on the baby blues........but am working on it....my mom leaves at the end of this week, and I am sad just thinking about it, than I will really be very much alone. I miss home so much right now, I can't explain it.

I have been surfing the web to find something to make me feel better and I came upon this blog from the London Underground blog.

Its a blog by a pigeon who lives in London - it is HILARIOUS! I love it! I enjoy the way he writes about all his pigeon friends and includes pictures, always makes me smile! Mart is my favorite! Check it out,

http://pigeonblog.wordpress.com/

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Hanging in there

Sorry - not much in a mood or have energy to blog much. I'm definitely suffering from post-par tum depression. This is rough. I want to take care of my baby but I have so little energy and than my emotions are so sad. Please tell me this will get better! I want the depression to go away, I want my energy back.

Friday, February 04, 2011

kitchen gadgets

Thank you all for the lovely congratulations - yes this whole thing is sooo overwhelming!!! I miss being pregnant, when I could sleep! Someone asked me the other day what I would like as a gift for my birthday, I replied a full nights sleep without waking up worrying about baby.

I do feel so blessed to have been given this baby but I just feel so overwhelmed, this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do! I think I could even scale a mountain at this point and it would be easier, because there I would only have to worry about myself!

Also I find my emotions are up and down all the time, people say this is to be expected, one second I'm ok, the next I'm crying over nothing. I keep the television on, it calms my nerves. Right now I have some grandma help which is heaven sent otherwise I would be a wreck but I'm nervous about what happens when grandma goes home. I just don't know if I can handle baby on my own. I know thousands of women before me have done it, but it just seems so hard!

We just saw an advertisement for stoneware pots, how funny, eh? A television ad about kitchen gadgets shows me that the world continues to go on even as I swirl around in my worry (which has me so stressed that I can't seem to eat). On top of which, natural feeding is not coming at all! I so wanted to be able to do that. What a failure as a mommy am I!

Right, sorry about this rather negative post - its only reflecting my current state of mind.