Saturday, February 26, 2011

Pigeon Blog

Still working on the baby blues........but am working on mom leaves at the end of this week, and I am sad just thinking about it, than I will really be very much alone. I miss home so much right now, I can't explain it.

I have been surfing the web to find something to make me feel better and I came upon this blog from the London Underground blog.

Its a blog by a pigeon who lives in London - it is HILARIOUS! I love it! I enjoy the way he writes about all his pigeon friends and includes pictures, always makes me smile! Mart is my favorite! Check it out,

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Hanging in there

Sorry - not much in a mood or have energy to blog much. I'm definitely suffering from post-par tum depression. This is rough. I want to take care of my baby but I have so little energy and than my emotions are so sad. Please tell me this will get better! I want the depression to go away, I want my energy back.

Friday, February 04, 2011

kitchen gadgets

Thank you all for the lovely congratulations - yes this whole thing is sooo overwhelming!!! I miss being pregnant, when I could sleep! Someone asked me the other day what I would like as a gift for my birthday, I replied a full nights sleep without waking up worrying about baby.

I do feel so blessed to have been given this baby but I just feel so overwhelmed, this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do! I think I could even scale a mountain at this point and it would be easier, because there I would only have to worry about myself!

Also I find my emotions are up and down all the time, people say this is to be expected, one second I'm ok, the next I'm crying over nothing. I keep the television on, it calms my nerves. Right now I have some grandma help which is heaven sent otherwise I would be a wreck but I'm nervous about what happens when grandma goes home. I just don't know if I can handle baby on my own. I know thousands of women before me have done it, but it just seems so hard!

We just saw an advertisement for stoneware pots, how funny, eh? A television ad about kitchen gadgets shows me that the world continues to go on even as I swirl around in my worry (which has me so stressed that I can't seem to eat). On top of which, natural feeding is not coming at all! I so wanted to be able to do that. What a failure as a mommy am I!

Right, sorry about this rather negative post - its only reflecting my current state of mind.