Checking the Blogs

First - THANK YOU guys SO MUCH for the love - knowing you guys are out there, makes me realize I'm not alone. The words of encouragement are much appreciated, I'm going to do the best I can and hopefully I will be successful.

First week is done and its mixed reviews.

- I got offered a graduate assistant position in the School of Business Marketing department (my field of studying). This position not only pays some cash but more importantly it gives me a tutition reimburstment. Half my tutition paid - yay!!!

- My Introduction to Marketing Class is an undergrad level (scheduling conflicts allowed me into that class and credit for my degree), its huge - so the teacher is only giving us three multiple exams, NO PAPERS!!

- I have made two friends in my Accounting class, one of whom is also in my Stat's class. So yay, not totally alone.

- Still a ton of work to do, it is still stressing me out. Last night didn't fall asleep until 3am, my mind kept going over and over all that I had to do and how I would get it done.

Right, so there it is....I apologize if I won't be checking everyone's blog as regularly as before, hopefully at least once a week.

Thanks again, I love you guys!!!

Get Me Out of Here!!

Last night was my first two classes and it is official....I hate it here!!! I'm in over my head, there is too much work, reading all the time and it seems like all my classmates know exactly what is going on and I'm the only ninacompoop in the room. I found out last night that if you get more than two "C" final grades you are kicked out of the program. Great, no pressure at all, I just have to get "A's" in subjects that I never even took as an undergrad, competing with people in my class who are only taking one or two classes, while I have four!

Plus, I am SO lonely, I have no friends, no social life, nothing. I WANT TO GO HOME!!!

I thought going back for my degree was the right decision, but now I'm not so sure, maybe I should have just taken the gig out West and stayed with my airline. I KNEW there was a reason for all those years I avoided going to graduate school, I'm drowning here.

Right going to go and take deep breaths, must get through this semester and than decide my fate.

First Day of School

Today is my first day of graduate school....I'm so nervous. Have I chosen the right path? What if I fail...what if I can't keep up?

Yesterday was my first night here in graduate housing...it is so different from being an undergrad. Its lonely. I sat in the common room and watched "Project Runway" all by myself. I have maybe 20 girls on my floor, I think everyone is studying something in the medical field (doctors, nurses, dentists, pharmacists, administrators, etc). They are very serious...no one has a single decoration on their door. I don't know any of them and I'm a bit scared to introduce myself, what if they don't care..what if they are like, "so what, I don't need anymore friends?"

I'm working on my new laptop which has some kinks on it and a soft keyboard, both things I'm getting use too. My room is in need of serious decorations...hopefully once I can get some more personal stuff in here, I will be more comfortable.

Already I have the pangs of homesickness...maybe I should have just lived at home and been a commuter student?? No, I believe everything happens for a reason, there is a reason I'm here.

Wish me luck...first day of school!

Mean People Suck

I was going to post about the state of my love life when I read adorable Tony's blog and just saw red!!

A few days ago, he was chatting online with a so-called friend, when out of the blue she tells adorable Tony "I don't hate you....I just don't like you that much." WTF???? Are you kidding me with this bull#*!t? What kind of "friend" says that to another "friend?" Why would you say that??? Do you like to be mean and hurtful??? Are you just a selfish pig??

I know some would say she was just trying to be honest but I think there is a fine line between honesty and just plain rudeness. My mother taught me that there are kind ways of getting your message across without being outright obnxious.

For instance, currently I have this guy in the UK who I liked eon's ago, but than he broke my heart (I cried and cried) and now wants to get back together. I know this guy is too emotionally needy for my taste and I haven't forgotten what he did to me, so I tried to make it clear when he began re-communicating, that I just wanted to be friends. He hasn't gotten the hint, he calls me everyday or emails me (so annoying!). I finally said to him today, "Look I want to be upfront and honest, I see us being great friends till the end of time, but I just don't feel its in the cards for a relationship." I didn't say what I really felt "Stop bugging me!"

Adorable Tony I say you cut this bratty girl from your circle of life, there are too many things in this world which we can't control that have a way of bringing us down, don't let this be one of those things! We love you babe!

Terror alerts

Someone forwarded me this joke/commentary, it did get me thinking....


I asked an Israeli security expert why his nation doesn't use these pretty color codes.

He asked me if, when I woke up, I checked the day's terror color.
"I can't say I ever have. I mean, who would?"

He smiled. "The terrorists."

America is the only nation on the planet that kindly informs bombers, hijackers and berserkers the days on which they won't be monitored. You've got to get up pretty early in the morning to get a jump on George Bush's team.

There are three possible explanations for the Administration's publishing a good-day-for-bombing color guidebook.

1. God is on Osama's side.
2. George is on Osama's side.
3. Fear sells better than sex.
A gold star if you picked #3.

Politics

This year in Virginia, we voters have to decide on a Senator, its a race between incombent George Allen (R.) or Jim Webb (D.).

I can't stand Allen. Let me be upfront about this. He reminds me of a good ol' boy, Virginia style. This means I think he certainly has some racist tendencies, he likes to drink and be obnxious, probably thinks women have a place and that's in the kitchen or raising kids, likes to hunt and do other manly things, you know what I'm talking about, think Dukes of Hazard or Trent Lott. He reminds me a lot of the boys who attended VMI (Virginia Military Institute), which was just down the street from my beloved Mary Baldwin College.

I now have proof of my suppositions of said character of Allen - http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/08/14/AR2006081400589.html

Allen represents Virginia 1950's, Jim Crow laws and all...is that really who we want representing us in the Senate of the United States of America?

Missing Monday

ok this is a week old...sorry - last week I was sick as a dog (hence the post title).....



JEREMY LAMAR DAVIS
DOB: May 21, 1990
Missing: Jul 24, 2006
Height: 5'7" (170 cm)
Eyes: Brown
Race: Black
Age Now: 16
Sex: Male
Weight: 125 lbs (57 kg)
Hair: Black
Missing From: CHARLOTTESVILLE, VA

Jeremy was last seen on July 24, 2006 at 1800 hours on Mallside Forest Drive. He was seen wearing a white t-shirt and black Nike shoes. His ears are pierced.

The Virginia State police site has a ton of kids on there (sadly) and I can't say why, but something about this kid's pic just made me want to stop and reach out, help. I hope he finds his way home and to the right path. Amen.

Books Memo

Books Memo (Ok I saw this on joeinvegas site and liked it so much I stole it. I'm a bad person).

1. One book that changed my life- Well the obvious, the Quran, as I study it more, I think I become closer to my faith and God. But on another level, I liked the Dalai Lama's autobiography and reading about Buddihism, helped me to learn things I had never thought about, see the world in a different way.

2. One book that I have read more than once: Duh, James and the Giant Peach by Ronald Dahl, my absolutely favorite book.

3. One book I would want on a deserted island: oh tough one, maybe something about surviving on a desert island? Otherwise, I guess if stranded on a desert island, it would finally be the time for me to catch up on some long ass book, like War and Peace.

4. One book that made me laugh: The Stephanie Plum series always has me rolling (you probably see them in the bookstore with the numbers in the title "one for the Money" etc) by Janet Evanovitch. Also "sssh Can you Keep a Secret?" by Sophia Kinsella.

5. One book that made me cry: Night by Eli Weisel. So powerful and moving, if you don't cry when reading this, I worry for your soul.

6. One book I wish I'd written: I wish I had the talent to write something funny and amusing, that would make the best seller list and I would be on talk shows and Oprah would love me, something like "The Nanny Diaries" or "The Devil Wears Prada." or I wish I could find a publisher or editor as Nicholas Sparks did. ugh Nicholas Sparks, so very bad....

7. One book I wish had never been written: Mien Kaumpf by Hitler or The Communist Manifesto by Marx. Both used to terrorize the world.

8. One book I am currently reading: Prep and the Poe Murder Mystery. I'm waiting for the Tipping Point, from the library.

9. One book I have been meaning to read: Kite Runner, my friend has been hounding me for ages to pick that up. I guess I have to be in the right frame of mind.

Sick as a Dog

Sorry for not posting for a while, I've been mad busy with my part-time gigs. I worked all weekend, on Sunday all day for Ozzfest, in the heat and am now sick. Joy.

I know today was suppose to be Missing Monday, I'll just have to do it next week.

Two weeks till I start school, eeck! I have nothing ready - but the good news, I got a single in the graduate housing I'm living in, so don't have to deal with roomates. I think I'm too old for that now, no?

It snowed in Johannseburg, South Africa last week, made me think of my crush. I would have loved to have walked in the snow with him, cutie pie. Sigh.

Happiness: a good bank account, a good cook, and a good digestion. -- Jean Jacques Rousseau

Summer Part-Time Jobs

I am working a part time job for the summer, a way to earn some cash and keep myself busy.

I'm in guest services at a local concert venue. Why you ask?

Its a relatively easy job, get paid to help people out. Guest Services at this place is the more older group, more mature, at 29, I'm one of the younger ones in the group. Local high schooler's are in the more traditional jobs, ushers, ticket takers, etc.

I took this job for two reasons: 1. cause I have worked at an entertainment venue before, the Nassau Coliseum in Long Island NY and 2. cause this place is 20 minutes from my house.

Working here is certainly interesting...I'm getting to hear many concerts, but more interesting is the dynamics of the place. A ton of teeny-boppers work here. Either kids in high school or recent college entrants. I swear its like I've entered high school again. It is so weird.

Once again the pretty people are also the popular ones, some management, like some teachers, coddles the beautiful girls and handsome guys. Everyone has a group, a set of friends, not to much intermingling goes on. People make fun of others, those who look different or act out of turn. Way too many inside jokes and eye-rolling and talking behind people's backs and crushes and flirting and "he said, she said" and all that crap

Initially I was quite turned off by this - I hated all that pettiness in high school, but now I realize, wait a minute! I am a world-class traveler, I have adult friends, sophisticated tastes, I've lived a whole life these teen's couldn't even fathom - why do I even care?

Luckily my group is great, being more mature, we realize its about the job and the job isn't our life and what is most important isn't our fellow co-workers but making the patrons have a great experience.

I feel so enlightened : )

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